Remember The Time...

So one of my resolutions for the year was to not let fear get the best of me and block me from doing something I wanted or needed to do.  Well...I'm quickly losing that battle.  My Fear: Public speaking.  Those two words alone makes me want to puke.  I've always struggled with it throughout most of my life.  I've tried public speaking classes, practicing, and saying "you can do this" repeatedly in my head, but nothing I did could take away the sinking feeling I had right before going up to speak publicly.  I wish I had some magical story to tell you how I conquered my fear, but no, I'm still very much afraid to speak in public, lol.  Where is this all coming from?  Well today in a meeting, I had to do a presentation to a group of people.  I was not happy with the way it went and I beat myself up for hours after the meeting.  I tried examining what in particular was it that makes me bomb when it comes to public speaking.  What is it about that fear that grips my heart and won't let go?  I thought about the last time I had this same fear but was able to pull through it.  It occurred to me that the last time I was fearful but managed to overcome it was just recently.  This past December in Union Square NYC when I did Street Portraits.   The day I decided to approach complete strangers and ask to take portraits of them.  That day I learned to let my heart take over despite what my mind was telling me; my passion is what saved me.  Photography helps to melt away my fears in a way nothing else ever has.  My camera empowers me to step outside my comfort zone and just be...

Mild, Just Be

Maybe the next time I have to speak publicly, I'll remember the time when I felt my strongest to help me through it.  It'll make me feel good and feel capable, but more importantly, I will no longer beat myself up.  If we can remember the experiences we've had where strength was our motivation, all fears can be conquered.